10/11/2024
I'm sorry for the long post ahead:
Today marks the anniversary of my stroke. A year ago my life changed forever. This has been the absolute hardest year of my life. But today I'm choosing to focus on the positive things I've learned.
1. Family is the most important thing. I remember waking up in the ICU, where I don't remember hardly anything. When I would wake, I always saw another person from my family sitting with me. Then I fell immediately back to sleep. It's all I remember from the ICU. It was a tender mercy from God. It calmed me. My family was asked to try to have someone with me at all times as the hospital was understaffed and it would ensure better care for me. The family came together and made a schedule. I was never alone. My doctor later remarked that he'd never seen such a dedicated family. My sisters, my children, even my brother in law took turns. It touches me that they loved me so much that they'd brave an uncomfortable, at times harrowing night (Mindy had to hold me down in bed at one point lol!) in the hospital and sometimes have to return to work the next day.
2. Priesthood prayers work. I asked for many; sometimes multiple times a day. 😂. Martin would tell me I'd already had one (or 5 that day. HiI'd forgotten) but he'd give me as many as I asked for. It was obviously a comfort for me. I don't remember them. But they helped me in the moment.
3. Temple roll blessings. I always remember when I'm in the temple, that at some point, my name was there. Thank you for those who ensured my name was being prayed for in temples. I have a strong testimony of the blessings that come from that.
4. Mourn with those who mourn. Those who took time out of their busy lives to visit me have no idea how much it lifted me. Thank you to friends, family, my sweet nephew. It is so important to mourn with those who mourn. You don't have to say anything. Just visit them, call, text. It's amazing how much it helps.
I must mention I'm grateful for my Mom who was with me that day. It is her birthday and we were celebrating. She got me to the hospital in time enough to save my life and ensure I would eventually recover. Had I been home, I would've said I felt sick, gone to bed and may not have woken up. Thanks Mom for having a birthday on the exact best day! 😂
I don't dream yet. It's strange. But maybe I'm being protected from nightmares. I don't mind! Lol. My life is different. But it's not so bad.
I hope I'm stronger after my ordeal. I think I am. I continue to learn.
I spent the day in my mountains which was tricky because I've had the stomach flu. But I felt better that I did it.
I'm looking forward to more time of recovery and peace!