04/04/2025
It isn’t in my nature to…
move slowly;
take breaks;
ask for help;
be stagnant;
think (more like 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯) first and act later;
or, wait for opportunities to come my way.
It 𝘪𝘴 in my nature to…
power through the s**t;
run full steam ahead;
figure it all out on my own;
and, face struggle with open arms… I’m always ready to fight, what can I say?
So, 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺, my body is teaching me a lesson that must be, well, a 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵. I’m learning, slowly I’ll admit, to, well, 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧*𝘤𝘬 𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘯.
I’ve been battling chronic illnesses for several years now. And my nature kept telling me that with each “good” day, I was better. I was healed. “Over the hump”, as they say.
But that’s simply not how chronic illnesses work. Healing isn’t linear. It isn’t even always absolute. And that’s ok.
So, I’m reframing how I view my healing. Because, quite honestly, it’s not the same for chronic illness as it often is for healthy individuals. And that’s ok.
It doesn’t mean I’ll be sick forever. But it does mean I will have lifestyle changes, boundaries, and adaptations. And that’s ok.
Chronic illness is confusing. They didn’t coin the term “invisible illness” for nothing. They didn’t coin the term “seeing is believing” for nothing either. And I’ll just let that stew for a moment…
But I have finally processed enough of the impacts of my own chronic illnesses to accept that I DO need a break. A real one this time.
✨ So that’s what this post is, a transparent insight into why ᴄᴀʀʙs & ᴄᴏғғᴇᴇ ᴄᴏ. is on hold. ✨
With that said, a huge part of healing for me is in creating. And I don’t know exactly what that will look like over the next few months. But I’ll be excited to share those things as they come to life.
Lastly—and, as always, when I speak candidly about my health—I do not post this for any sort of sympathy. But rather for transparency and (in the off chance that anyone made it this far into this caption) for others that may be in similar circumstances to feel a sense of community during times of isolation, confusion and frustration.
Lots of love,
𝘚𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘩 💛