11/03/2026
Update on my sweet boy🩵
I honestly don't even know anymore.
I am truly trying my best to hold myself together through all of this. I'm trying to fight for every bit of protection I can to keep my job and avoid being terminated, and every time I feel like I've finally gotten some form of protection in place, something else happens. It feels like I'm constantly taking two steps forward and three steps back.
I'm already walking an extremely thin line with work after the beginning of this unexpected hospital journey with Bodhi. It's been almost a month of hospital visits, testing, labs, X-rays, scans, and desperately trying to get answers. All while trying to keep myself emotionally together, not let the stress consume me, and not feel like I'm constantly asking for help or putting even more on Brandon's shoulders when he's already carrying so much himself.
Brandon has been absolutely amazing through all of this. I know he's exhausted, too, but he continues to show up for us in every way possible. He has been my rock through this emotional roller coaster, and I honestly don't know what I would do without him. I love you, babe. ❤️
Right now, I genuinely don't know which direction to turn. I don't know what decision to make, what steps to take next, or which choice is going to be best for me and my family. I feel like I'm fighting battles on every front, and I'm running out of the emotional energy to keep fighting them all at once.
Worried and anxious are honestly understatements.
I'm trying. I'm really trying. But I'm human, too, and I'm scared. I'm scared of what happens next, scared of losing the stability I've worked so hard for, and scared of having to choose between being there for my child and protecting the job that helps provide for my family.
No parent should ever have to feel like those two things are competing against each other.
Right now, I'm just taking things one day, one appointment, and one battle at a time. ❤️
Bodhi is showing areas of improvement and that's amazing baby steps!!! Now it's awaiting games of labs, test and seeing how is body will react. He still has his chest tub, a small appetite, some sass and small prince demands as any small little guy would.
I'll try and keep things updated.
🙏 For us.
I'm hoping once he's home as we are adjusting I can get back in the kitchen and bake up some goodies and start our Holiday menus.🧡🧡🧡
