11/12/2023
Some of you may have noticed that I have been M.I.A on Facebook and I have. I'm not going to lie, it's been very nice! I highly recommend it! But I hopped on for the day. A year ago today my life changed in a blink of an eye. I was just at work minding my own business while I was prepping dough to make cinnamon rolls for weekend brunch. Well the universe clearly had different plans for me when I felt the pop in my head and I immediately thought "Oh s**t I'm having a brain aneurysm!" Just imagine pain so great that you get hot, sweaty and nauseous all at once. The worst headache ever and your vision is in black and white. That would be me ππΎββοΈ
I have to give the Lord all of the praise and glory along with my AH-MAZING team of doctors and nurses that I'm still here on this earth today. I can't thank my family enough for being there when I came to in the ICU. Huge kudos to my coworkers for calling 911. Thank you to my friends who were also there for me. Thank you to those of you who took time out of their work day to come spent their lunch hours visiting me. Thank you for the ones that brought me coffee because the hospital coffee sucked. Thank you to ones who heard my call for donuts and didn't disappoint! Thank you to those who have provided food and financial assistance, much appreciated! Thank you for guys for your thoughts and much needed prayers.
My brain aneurysm didn't change my outwardly appearance but it definitely changed me on my inside. My memory is the same. My vision is definitely not the same with permanent damage to my optic nerve which had left the blind in one eye. My thought processes are not the same.
I spent 21 days in the ICU. In those 21 days all I had was time. Time to think about my life. Time to think about how my life will never be the same as it was on the morning of November 11, 2022. Time to think about how I survived and when there's a large population of those that have had aneurysms and they died. Time to think about how really short and precious life truly is.
We're told that our next isn't promised. Realistically our next second isn't promised. So live in the present. Don't worry about what's going to happen tomorrow. Save that for tomorrow. If you have to worry about something, then worry about it but only temporarily. Worrying doesn't solve problems, it doesn't. It only adds unnecessary stress. We already have stresses in our lives as it is so why add more. Through this experience I've learned who my people are. I've learned who my people aren't. There are still a few of my peeps that I've yet to hear from. So if you're reading this and feel like it sounds like you, don't bother, I'm good. You had a whole year to check. Fortunately I've got an amazing support circle and I'm grateful and thankful for them every single day.
So remember that life is short! Instead of asking someone how they're doing try asking them how are they feeling. Doing and feeling are two different things β€οΈ