08/29/2026
My alarm went off at 3am, I crawled out of bed ready and excited to start baking. The anticipation of bread shed Saturday setting in. I pulled out my bread dough from the fridge, I was setting them on my sheets to go in the oven and, upon inspection, noticed lint all over my bread & bagels and imbedded into the dough. Loaf after loaf covered in lint from the new (& washed) towels I had to buy due to the other ones mistakingly getting thrown out. I have always had designated bakery dish towels that I’ve used for years with no issue. I wash after every use and never had this problem.
Yesterday it was hurdle after hurdle and this morning is not going much better. Clearly. 🫠 The month of August has been one hit after another & I’m ready for this month to end. These are the days where I hold ‘my why’, I talked about earlier this week, close because I’d be lying if quitting wasn’t looking like a solid option after yesterday and this morning. I feel wasteful. I feel disappointed and discouraged. I feel like throwing in the towel. Yet, I’m not a quitter. I know this. I learn, I pivot and I move forward. I’ve had so many bad days and learning curves and had to throw away so much dough when I first was learning. It’s not the first bad day & I know this won’t be the last bad day. But not going to lie this stinks & the bad days really can hurt a small business especially when you are counting on it and pour so much of yourself into your business.
I’m having to toss SOO much dough. All the hours that I spent working on it & money poured into it feels like it was for nothing. And because the dough felt amazing & I clearly love torturing myself I still wanted to bake it up (knowing it wasn’t going to be sellable) and see how it would come out. Of course, it was some really good dough that baked up really well & beautifully. I knew it was going to make some great bread by how it felt yesterday. 😭
All that to say is I won’t have the shed open today because I quite literally am tossing almost all my inventory.
Lucky enough my cinnamon roll dough got nowhere near the towels & have been spared. I’ll have those available as first come first served option. I’ll post that option a little bit later unless another disaster strikes again.
-your tired and disappointed sourdough baker
