08/29/2026
When you’ve been in a funk and the feeling lifts, it is the biggest relief. For the last few months, I’ve struggled to think about food. Struggled to find my excitement. But in the last three weeks, I have felt that burden lift. I’ve had energy in the mornings and felt that excitement for what I do again.
Being creative for a living is more challenging than it may seem. The “feeling” I need to keep pursuing my dream does not appear on demand. It is an energy inside of me that I don’t control. It has gotten us here, and when it decides it needs a break, I wind up feeling down and fearful. What if it’s gone? What if this just doesn’t excite me anymore?
But time and time again, it comes back. Like an old friend showing up unannounced, it arrives, and I feel like a new person.
As tough as these last few months have been, it’s because of all of you that I never give up. I hear the conversations at the window, I see your messages, and I genuinely feel the love being delivered to our doorstep daily. It has filled me with so much hope and space to dream.
And I would be lying if I didn’t add that MS has helped me in some ways. Sometimes just feeling the sun on my face fills me with appreciation for the mundane—for the things I must have overlooked all these years. Finding lightness in the everyday has helped me deal with the unknown. I live in a body I cannot control, with a disease moving through me like a freight train with no end of the line.
But through it all, Rory’s Bakehouse is like a beacon for me. The place where I continue to find myself over and over again.
This isn’t the story of a regular baker. This is the story of one person’s life. The story of how two things can always be true at the same time. I am living an absolute dream that my ten-year-old self would never believe, and yet I am also living a kind of nightmare. And I am finally holding space for both of those things at once. My therapist would say: the good, the bad, and the ugly.
And because two things can be true, this can also be a post about pie. This is a chocolate haupia pie, and making it brought me joy. We may just have to offer it at the Bakehouse next week.