01/17/2026
It is true, you never know what someone is going through or dealing with. Up until 2017, no one knew that I had been suicidal since I was 13 yo. I finally admitted it to others, publicly. Only one person stepped was there for me to talk to. She knew what that kind of depression was like as she had lived with it. Unfortunately the one person who offered me support, someone to talk to without judgment, passed away several months later. 😢 While she told me something and asked that I don't tell anyone, something I can't at all understand the why of it, I still love her and miss her. She had a good heart, she was there for me in a way no one except my aunt had been when I was 11 yo. When she passed, I actually reached out to some who just threw out "We'll have to get together for lunch or something" kind of response. Besides the fact that not everyone can just go out to eat whenever they feel like it, when you are dealing with heavy things, carrying so much inside, you certainly don't want to speak about personal stuff in a public place where others can overhear. At least, I sure as heck didn't...but it was a non issue as they didn't step forward to "be there" as they said.
While I am beyond the suicidal tendencies, while that help from her helped me get on the path to healing from things I never used to say out loud, let alone publicly...I still have a long road ahead in dealing with things while all I feel is judgment from too many.
It isn't just about what they are currently dealing with, it is also about what they have had to deal with (and could still be dealing with).
Having "Been there", I guess maybe that is why I will always try to be there, try to help others...whatever the situation. If someone were to message me or call me needing help, I will do my best to try to help. Need to talk? Reach out, lets talk..anything said will be kept between us. Can't afford food? I will do my best to help, reach out.
This post isn't to "shame" those who weren't there, so I hope it isn't taken that way.