04/01/2026
During the last few months of 2025, life got very overwhelming and difficult for me. I still showed up and put in the work every day for my girls and family, my clients and my full-time career, but I was struggling to keep myself from letting the negative things completely overwhelm me.
Looking back at the pictures of treats I hadn't posted for months, I can even see through them how I was struggling. Sometimes it was just one quick picture to send to a client before pick up/delivery. Sometimes I didn't stage the picture at all. I completely stopped taking videos altogether. Other times I didn't even get a picture of what I created. Before my announcement in mid December that I was closing the doors on Sweet P's, I hadn't even posted a single thing since early October. I just didn't feel like myself anymore. I was dealing with alot of hurt and heartbreak, and in my mind I needed something to blame it on, and the easiest thing for me to do was look at this small little business I had built up out of nothing, and blame it for consuming my time and pulling my focus. So I shut the doors on it, and you know what happened? I found myself still feeling everything I had been feeling, but then I felt a new loss on top of it all. I had cut off my outlet, what I normally poured myself into when life got tough. I sacrificed this little business I created with a false idea that I would feel relief, and be able to reset myself and my priorities. I falsely believed that Sweet P's had stolen all my attention and thought that closing the doors would bring me peace. Instead of feeling at peace with that decision, I felt a sadness. Sadness that I would no longer have the privilege and opportunity to be a part of so many people's celebrations. Sadness that I didn't have this outlet anymore. Sadness when my youngest would ask me when she could "help" me bake again. Sadness that I let life break me down. And sadness that I felt like I was showing my girls that when life gets tough you can just quit. None of those things were how I expected to feel, and I missed my baking immensely.
Don't get me wrong, I needed the break to get things settled and myself back together after moving, so I do not regret taking a break from orders. But I do regret the reasons why I thought I needed it. Over the last few months I've shown myself that I can handle way more than I ever thought I could. I might not always do it gracefully, but I'm going to find a way to pull through it all, one way or another. I'm very thankful for my support system of family and friends who have been there for me every step of the way, and so very thankful for all the encouragement and kind words I received from all my past and present clients who reached out. Every message and comment was read and appreciated, even if I didnt respond at the time.
So, as this is my first day officially being back open, here are all the pictures I didn't post throughout the last few months of 2025. These were things I created when I felt down and out, but looking back at them now I feel very proud that even through my time of hurt and pain, I was still able to create, in my opinion, some beautiful things ❤️
