07/22/2026
I want to begin this post by saying, I am not typing any of this so people feel sorry for me. And at the end of the day I’m ok, but I have always believed in pulling back the curtain and being real because you never know who needs to see that there is someone else in the trenches with them.
I know how to do hard things.
My parents were chronically ill my entire life struggling, in and out of the hospital.
I lost my beloved grandma to cancer when I was 16.
3 months after I got married my grandpa was killed in a tragic car accident one day before he left for Israel.
My cousin was murdered by his girlfriend.
My brother took his own life when he was 19.
I have walked through the deep valleys of mental health with both of daughters.
I have struggle with an eating disorder for over 20 years of my life that has led to serious self worth issues.
I have had multiple career and life changes of starting over.
My husband out of the blue and a shock to even his doctors was diagnosed with a cancer they have never seen in a man as young as Miguel.
And through it all I was strong. I was hopeful. And I believed.
But something broke in me when they found another tumor just weeks after we celebrated one year of clean scans.
For the first time in my life I have no idea what the light at the end of this is. How to have peace, joy, and love through this very dark time.
I cling to the words in this song. That someday I will look back and be a testimony to someone. I don’t feel this now, but I have to believe that.
So if you too are struggling. I am here. Please comment or send me a message so we can talk. And I mean that. I have found looking outside myself to others has the ability to begin healing in my own heart.