10/09/2026
This is the most personal and compelling book I have written! It is deeply personal and intentional. As I poured out on the pages God reminded me where He has brought me from. I felt the mandate to release my personal struggles, pain, and deliverance. This is not just another book, its my life in black and white.
Have you ever built a version of yourself just to be accepted? I did. They called him DeShy: confident, magnetic, always the life of the room. Nobody knew I was terrified underneath, using alcohol and ma*****na to keep the mask on and the real man hidden.
Behind the Mask is my unflinching testimony, growing up the black sheep in a New Bern, North Carolina housing project, bullied into silence, chasing acceptance through people-pleasing, and building a persona at Shaw University that nearly cost me my life.
Then God stopped the leak.
This book does not stay in the pain. It walks with you through the slow, honest work of healing: releasing the exhausting cycle of people-pleasing, discovering who God actually created you to be, and learning to love that person. With Scripture woven through every chapter and practical steps for everyday life, I work to show what it looks like to trade a lifetime of performing for real, lasting peace, the same peace that now anchors my marriage, family, and Chosen Ministries Christian Center, where I pastor those the world left aside and broken.
If you have ever built a mask just to be loved, this book was written for you. Your validation was never meant to come from people. It is time to take the mask off.
Get your copy today!