09/01/2021
Three years ago today this picture was taken. It was the day the sign for my first business went up. A dream come true. The first steps to being able to take to the next level the craft I love. Wow what a memorable day! My mom was there with me while the awesome guys over put up my custom sign.
Looking at this picture is bittersweet. After much debate and consideration I have decided to close the doors below this sign. After years of construction, planning, investment, legalities, and permeating I was FINALLY able to open. Then 2 weeks later the COVID-19 pandemic happened. Meaning, I had to put on hold on plans.
Yet I decided to open and continue my journey. With great support from family, friends, and longtime clients things went well inside my 875 sqft bakery. But outside my doors though the challenges kept coming like waves of a storm.
But these last three months have been my Armageddon. Finding help has been challenging and having to sail this ship completely solo is no picnic. Working over 84hr weeks, dealing with everyday customers, trying to plan with clients in a timely manner, ordering supplies, personally shopping for ingredients, measuring every gram, mixing every batter, baking every cookie, crumb coating every cake, frosting every cupcake, decorating every cake-pop, then washing every pan/spoon/cup/etc, scrubbing every tile, and all to kept standard my clients expect. Having to mask mental and physical breakdowns with a smile. No surprise that I’ve started to make mistakes, have lapses, and let people down. Which is the hardest thing for me to bear.
I can’t kept dropping the ball b/c I’m overworked and overtired. So I would prefer to shut down than continue letting people down because I simply can’t do it all and do it well.
Again, I am sorry for letting down all those I have wronged. I take my work seriously and only want to provide the best I can. And since I can no longer do so then I will take a step back and hope it’s for the best.