01/18/2018
Hi everyone! Life update time! Bonus points if you make it to the end. π
Iβve been a pretty terrible biz person the past several months and have totally failed at keeping up with the βsocial mediaβ thing. I want to be open and honest (screw all this βperfect looking lifeβ s**t) soooo incoming rambling sesh!
Iβve mentioned it previously, but Iβve been struggling with the loss of a very dear friend of mine. We grew up together and were best friends for 20 years (since 4th grade). She died at the beginning of September (very suddenly, I was completely shocked) and ever since then Iβve just felt like things donβt matter anymore, that life isnβt what I thought it would be. It broke me. I didnβt care about my business anymore and just felt completely lost. Christmas was especially difficult to get throughβ¦ being so busy while everyday my brain was screaming βI hate this, I hate this, I hate this!!!β. I miss her everyday & my heart aches everyday. Iβm sure most, if not ALL, of you can relate somehowβ¦ loss is something that every single one of us will have to deal with throughout our lives. So, why not talk about it openly? I decided that I wanted to honour her memory by getting a tattoo - my first one! I was never sure if I wanted one but when she died I KNEW I had to get one. I wanted to be able to look down at my arm and be reminded of her everyday, for the rest of my life. I have this fear that I will βforgetβ her, even though I know I NEVER could. The text is a line from one of the poems she wrote. She always blew me away with her poemsβ¦ she had a way with words, thatβs for sure.
ANYWAY, after the Christmas insanity, I decided to take a lengthy vacay and just last night found myself in brainstorm land, whilst lounging on the couch at 2am, haha! Iβve decided that Iβm going to make some changes to my bizβ¦ I feel stagnant and need a lilβ change to get that βsparkβ back. Nothing TOO crazy, just smaller things that will make me happier. Today, Iβve been buzzing with ideas and have felt excited for the first time in a long time. Iβm keeping my mouth shut for now but will let you all know soon enough (gotta kick my own ass and get s**t done, haha). Also, if I disappear again (can't really predict these rollercoaster of emotion periods, haha) you'll know why and that I WILL be back. π
Thatβs all for now! I will be updating my website soon with some special V-day cookies! Much love to you all, and a heartfelt THANK YOU for being SO supportive and KIND!!! In the end, love is all that truly matters. β€οΈπ§‘ππππ
*BEAUTIFUL ARTWORK DONE BY HELENA DARLING!! SHE'S THE BEST!*