02/05/2026
š©¶this is how I find my wayš¤
My 2025 year notesā¦
I learned that grief and gratitude can coexist.
That I can feel my heart crack down the middle and be thankful for the pain because it means that Iāve lived fully and loved deeply-that I didnāt hide from life but instead chose to pour my whole self into the act of beautiful, hard, messy living.
I learned that I can love the life I have now while still taking time to grieve the paths I didnāt walk. The lives I didnāt get to live. The people who are no longer traveling this path beside me. The visions of a future I once had that can no longer be.
I learned that so many times in life, we donāt know that the last time we do something is going to be the last.
That it often sneaks up on us unexpectedly. And that while we canāt prevent the lasts, we can love what we have now while itās still here just a little bit more.
My 2025ā¦I learned that my heart can handle so much more than I ever gave it credit for.
That itās soft but mighty.
That itās far stronger than I ever realized-stronger than I even know now.
And while I sometimes wish it didnāt have to be so strong, Iām grateful for this beating heart for always reminding me that Iām still here.
Still breathing.
Iām grateful for its gentle wisdom and soft nudges. And most of all, Iām grateful that in the joy and the pain, the hope and the heartacheāit knows loveš
