19/10/2023
Extending the break. 😴
Hey folks. I've decided to extend my break into next week. Truth be told, I don't feel like I've really had much of a break at all.. I may be on the verge of another cold (this time I caught it off my partner so it's not my fault), and mentally I'm still feeling exhausted.
I've been doing laps around the house having an internal debate about whether I should open Saturday. Yes, I need to decide on a Thursday because that's when prep begins.
I could do a full day of prep only to find I'm sick tomorrow, which means wasted energy and ingredients. Or I could feel fine and end up with a missed opportunity. I feel guilty either way, but it seems there's enough factors going against me that I just need to chill a little longer.
I see so many small business owners and other bakeries kicking ass, seemingly working 30 hours a day and never needing to slow down. I know it's s**t to compare one's self to others but man, I just don't have that in me. I love making bread and feeding a community, but gee is it taking a lot out of me.
And I know, I'm only open two days a week. But for a one-person bakery who only does sourdough stuff there's about 50 or 60 hours a week between admin, ordering, prep, production, baking, deliveries and retail (and so much cleaning it'd make your head spin). I say this because from the outside it may look like I'm not doing much, but I'm a human being who, probably foolishly, puts a little too much stock in external perception.
From this ramble it's probably clear that my mental health isn't currently where it needs to be. All going well, I'll be back soon. Perhaps we can see out the last week in October on the usual schedule and I'll come back the following month with something different. Something that feels a little more manageable/less overwhelming.
Thanks to all for your patience and support. See you soon. 💜