09/17/2024
To whom it may concern ! My life has not always been where it is now ! I COULDVE SWORN one of the sole purposes a lot of y’all stuck around for my journey was bc I was REAL about where I was in life !! Yall seen me hair raggedy , flawed teeth , never wearing makeup at one point & sometimes seen me not have the best things to post or say bc of hurt or anger ! Yall watched me grieve many deaths and on the other side yall SEEN ME SING !! Yall seen me transmute 💩 to ART yall saw the ALCHEMIST in me everytime I turned on live and sung or ministered I wasn’t just talking to YALL I was talking to myself but I knew GOD was putting me thru things to empower others , bc I was strong , but it didn’t mean others were ! I needed yall just like yall needed me !! In 2022 yall saw a highlight in my life ON WORLDWIDE TELEVISION !! & even then what was I doing ? Bringing my story and revelations with me !!! yall saw what I was going thru on a larger platform than social media & I wanted yall to know that we are never gonna be perfect , but we will always be taken care of if we do what we’re called to do !!! So even after AMERICAN IDOL , the blessings didn’t stop & neither did the trials!! It comes with the territory!!! I got my teeth fixed I lost hella weight, I was smiling with a little bit more confidence than ever before , I got MARRIED & I moved and just accomplished MANY great things & then I lost a lot of THOSE SAME THINGS !! see the one reason we connect so well, from what I believe , is because just as loud as I am about my wins , I’m that loud about my losses too !! Why? bc it’s all apart of the journey that makes me who I am, and the thing that helps me connect to the world !! When I give yall my MUSIC , MY ART , I’m not selling PERFECTION, I’m selling TRUTH , I’m selling revelation ,& REALIZATION , while pushing PERSEVERANCE & PERSISTENCE!!! MY MARRIAGE ENDED , (ALOT OF YALL KNOW WHY & some don’t ) my 4 Bdrm 2 bath house with the pool FELL THE F**K APART BC THE LANDLORD WITHHELD PLUMBING ISSUES & I had to move to a lovely humbled 2 bd 2 bath apt (which I love ) I’m scheduled to get new dental work on TUESDAY (not bc the first dental work wasn’t good , but bc of something I did wrong ) my lovely RED LEXUS WITH THE PEANUT BUTTER INTERIOR, gave out on me bc the transmission was faulty under 90 days !!! I drive a much more humble but very reliable vehicle now (which I chose to keep private bc haters be hating 🤣) & in the midst of all of that I was going thru the worst depression in my life for months !!! & I was still trynna push out videos to entertain my supporters bc y’all been here for YEARS !!!! nobody knows every thing that goes on behind closed doors 🚪 but it’s always more than what meets the eye !! Idc who it is how rich they are , how good they look and idc how many shows I showed up to fully glammed out , once I was off that stage I was self medicating and numbing the pain 🍃 💨 & for so long I felt misunderstood!! I remember going to my hair appointments trynna feel good about myself Justice Bush and I in tears praying for my sanity bc I saw myself battling su***de or even worse !!! But I made it out !! Nothing looks the same as it did last year, but it’s bc it’s not suppose to !!! So when I bring y’all THIS ALBUM !! Titled R&B
WE AINT TALKING BOUT “RYTHM & BLUES” , we talking bout RESPECT & BOUNDARIES! Bc for my entire F**KING LIFE, I HAD NONE ! & that’s when I learned I was THE ROOT OF MAJORITY OF MY PAIN ! Being afraid to stand up for what I believed and what my gut told me was right !!! For the sake of pleasing ppl who prolly could care less about me !!! so to the new mfs who seen my recent reels and music , and thought my music was to brag about keeping a man from a BITCH THAT TOOK HIM , understand nothing about those things were a flex, or bragging but it was my truth at that time, it was my level of understanding, before growing out of that, and it is very much a lot of other women’s truth !!! And I’m MARRIED TO MY ART, MY MUSIC!!!
THIS ALBUM IM GIVING YALL IS THE CEREMONY !! so when you listen 👂 don’t listen as WOMAN trynna s**t on the next, bc we all out here SEEKING LOVE‼️but listen to it as a woman who wants to TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR WHATS GOING ON IN HER LIFE & GROW FROM IT ! My teacher use to tell me “a dummy learns from their own mistakes , but a wise person learns from others’ mistakes” !!
Don’t ever think I’m ashamed of anything I went thru ! Bc I’m not‼️ I OVERSTAND FULLY WHAT GOD IS DOING , HAS DONE ,& IS ABOUT TO DO IN MY LIFE !!! & I love and appreciate every moment of it, the highs and lows !! I WALK THIS WALK MORE CONFIDENTLY THAN I EVER WALKED ! Nothing was really a loss , it was the sauce for the drip y’all bout to see when I’m holding my GRAMMY , SMILING ☺️
9MORE DAYS & we rock out 🎸 I love yall