09/05/2026
Hey Flour Jack Fam! ( )
I wanted to express a thank you to my community for checking in with me, as Ive disappeared off the face of the planet since July 😬 Your girl has been going through it! Something about me is, I tend to retract all the way back to ground zero, when something in my personal life messes with my mental health. This is something I have learned to do being alone most of my life... something detrimental happens to "the plan"... retract, start over, its always been my go to... and thats what ive been trying to do, but you all won't let that happen! Which I am so thankful for.
What the community of Lebanon has taught me is, you don't always have to be at the top, to recieve the love you deserve. Yes, your time will come, in patches, people will recognize the hard work, then its someone else's turn. You know? But your people, your community you grow each time you get to shine, the ones that ask "where's Flour jack been?" When you come to Carmens. The ones that send personal messages, "hey are you okay", that is what makes this journey worth it, the part that makes me hold on.
The truth is, when my family and I came here, we had plans to; homestead, farmstand, invest in our community, be apart of our community, be generational curses breakers... all while just trying to figure life out after a lot of trauma before coming here.. and that's a lot of responsibility for a little family. Then, I found Carmen's and everything started to change; my self worth, how I saw myself in the community and what I was going to have to do, in order to accomplish that. So, for the last year, Ive put my head down, slowly stopped working on Flour Jack alone, focused on Carmen's and now I am exactly where I want to be... making dough and helping run a successful business alongside other incredible people. So, the plan changes, the mentality shifts, the change happens... this is apart of being a human I guess. But sometimes some retraction is needed, saying no is needed and choosing yourself is definitely needed.
As the holidays set upon us, the decorations for each holiday come out, you may see glimpses of Flour Jack, but for now, my focus stays on Carmens and making that a strong community outlet for; fresh food, meaningful connection and just a place that feels like home. I thank my Carmens family for standing with me through my changes, my health issues and my coming into a new chapter of life (because we all know thats not easy).
You will still see me out in the community. You will still see a post here and there... but for the first time in my life, I am choosing to just focus on one thing, not overload myself for self worth and actual enjoy the peace I have created and recieved here. Maybe one day you may see Flour Jack come back with a bang, but for now, its time for that dream to rest. 🩵🩵🩵🩵
