31/12/2022
Taking a moment to pause and reflect. This is a long one so buckle up.
As the year ends I am making space to tend to my wounds. After becoming a parent, I have had to lean into difficult responsibilities. Ah yes that just comes with parenting, but that is not what I am referring to. Yes, parenting is hard but I've known hard in many different ways in my life. Parenting on its own is not the challenge I speak of.
What I'm talking about is not being able to afford childcare and being expected to balance looking after my baby WHILE working full time. This is not a situation unique to me, and my role at my job asks A LOT from me even without parenting simultaneously. Every day I must work with a sense of urgency, empathize, find solutions, multitask, listen to frustrated customers, meet productivity expectations, answer calls, attend meetings, be a leader, coach staff, work on projects, and that's not all.
I have to do all this all while my child needs to be fed, diaper changed, given attention/entertainment, gets rest, gets pain reliever for her teething, and is generally tended to for every need in the moment.
This last month I did all this AND fulfilled business orders and sold at markets. I am not telling y'all this asking for a badge of honor. In fact I am trying to tell you the degree to which I am exhausted and frustrated with the system failing me entirely. This routine is clearly not sustainable and as you can imagine there was a LOT of sleep deprivation, stress, and tears. I am telling you this as it is clear change is needed.
I'm steadily working towards converting P+S into a fully operational flower farm, and am asking for a call to action. If this flower farm is going to work at all, I cannot do it alone. Working on this farm would allow me some flexibility and free up A LOT of undue stress.
As we move forward this new year please help me find a more sustainable means of supporting my family. If enough orders come through consistently I can devote more time to P+S and my family while keeping my sanity. Even just sharing posts goes a long way. Let's make this the year P+S gets growing.