09/10/2024
Finally stopped overthinking it and got my oil paints back out. TWO paintings happened!
The toad is how I visualise my depression, it is something I live with every day and sometimes it is small and fairly light, but it is always there, and sometimes it grows and it is so heavy and it weighs me down. Its been helping to have this solid representation so I can try to accept it as a part of me, a part I believe I won't ever be without but that means I can work towards learning how to cope better and how to help it shrink instead of just wishing it would just go away.
The pigeon is one of a few I have been wanting to paint, I went on a big run a while ago and on one long road I had to hop over 4 different dead birds and a dead mouse, goodness knows what had gone on that day but I gave each a moment of thought at how sad it was, paid my respects somewhat, and also how peaceful they all looked and ever since I have wanted to paint them, so here is my pigeon. I think it will be going up for sale some time in the future along with the other birds I have in the works, once they are fully dry and sealed.
Thanks for reading if you got this far
