07/06/2026
Mothering without my mum, has been one of the hardest parts of my journey
You see it on the TV, in films & in real life
Sharing the news with loved ones, mum coming with you to the scans and appts, baby shower planning, baby shopping, will you be my second birth partner, mum helping with the baby, dinner drop offs, babysitting
I struggled with not having my mum to answer my questions, is this normal? What was I like as a baby? How was your pregnancy? Any complications? Was I a happy baby? Did I have colic? Did I sleep? Will I be this tired forever?! π
Motherhood doesn't come with a manual, a guidebook(if only) but I've never had the one person who could give me an insight
The times when I've been exhausted, in tears, questioning and doubting, I've needed her
I remember when my boys both had chickenpox and I immediately panicked, I didn't know if I had them as a child, I had to ring the GP to find out π
Now as they've grown, each year I feel truly blessed, it's bittersweet because I always feel the pain of my parents missing out on watching their grandsons grow up, new questions that arise that I would love to ask, especially as my mum had my two brothers before me.. it's wild at timesπ
I just wish you could see them and know them because they're the best π©΅π
To anyone else mothering without their mum, I see you and I'm sorry π«